Q & A

Name: Rose Bong

D.O.B: 2nd October

Who tagged you: The Star

Name 5 good friends of yours: Cindy, Daddy Teo, Nikki....I only have three...Oh, and there's Sitiman

What presents do you hope to get for your birthday: Ticket to Paris, please

Recently what makes you happy: I bought a lot of clothes, and watch the stupid show and weep - 败犬女王

Recently what makes you stressful: I don't have this word in my dictionary.

What do you wanna do/become in the future: Business Woman who always have enough money to travel around the world.

Do you have a crush on someone: Not anymore. My bf will marry me once he earns enough money, so I'm waiting to become the pretty wife.

Would you go meet up with your teachers during school reunion: I don't talk much to my teacher. Fed up with them.

Whom do you feel most blissful to go out with: Daddy Teo and mummy

If both of your good friends quarrel: I don't talk to her but I feel pain in the heart

Where is the place you wanna go most with your bf/gf: I don't know.I don't mind if we just stay home all day long just to watch Mr. Bean

What do you plan to do on X'mas: Make ten snow mans

Whom do you wanna spend X'mas with the most: Stranger(Real Handsome Model perhaps..hahahaha!)

Do you have the habit of getting angry/annoyed when you get up from bed every morning: Nop. I fold my blanket and watch my ugly face in the mirror, that's for sure, which sometimes make me hate my eyes!

How many siblings do you have: Hate to count,IS 6!

A song you love the most (by female singer): Surprise Surprise(That was lately...before this, I love White Horse the most)

A song you love the most (by male singer): No Surprise('Cause there's something I'll hate it tomorrow)

Favorite color: White and yellow(pure and peace)

Do you flush the toilet before using it: SHould I? What kind of stupid rules is this? My mum said,"save the water!"And I prefer this rules more.

Do you love me: I would like to love everyone, but there's still some annoying people around!

Do you love guys or girls: I love my best pals, they're girls, would you say I'm a lesbian then?

What is the thing you wanna shout out loud about the most: Raymond! I would like you til I die! Hahahaha! But I will make sure he's not around when I shout it out.

Do you dare to go toilet alone in the midnight: I go alone every night, with my eyes shut and sometimes even forget the locked the door.

Do you take off your pants when you go toilet: Should I put it on? Then how it is going to come out?

Who worth a punch: My Head Outlet and those stupid lazy staffs!!!!

What do you indulge in now: ....

Bad sleeping pose: I slept like a cute baby. Satisfy?

What's the time now: 11.02am

Your weight: 45kg

How's the weather today: Mr. Sun always say hi to me lately

Are you pregnant: Then I won't have time to write my blog

What would you wanna do the most if you win a lottery: Give it to the old folks an d buy myself a posche!

What is a must-do for an undergrad: *_*

If you could add another color to the rainbow, what color whould that be: PINK!

Do you believe there is everlasting love: Maybe?

What color of shirt are you wearing: Dark Blue

Is it hard to let go of a person: If he Loves me So

What do you feel about towards those who lied to you: I would like to punch their face before we're back as friend.

Recently, when did you watch blue film: I saw David Beckham Half-naked photo in the magazine, is that count?

A book you read recently:Stranger's Kiss

When was your last time crying: Thursday(29th October)

Have you stopped keeping things from your parents: My mum doesn't even know I bought a new clothes 'cause she thought that was given by my sis. 
New Q#Do you mind weep in front of a stranger: yes, if he's cute

Bye Bye

Sometimes,

the hardest thing to do is not you're unable to open the heart of the one you liked;

but

is you can't even open your own heart for them to come in.

And then,

the smiling face won't be the same again.

As the one who received it don't see how beautiful it was.

 

While I have so much to say,

I left it in the back door,

and shut it up

'til the next one come

and open it.

Now I let everything back to the very beginning.

I want everything remain

as merely JUST friend.

*Why do we never know what we've got 'til it's gone?*

October Ends

I don't like lollipop at all. It tasted sweet, but bitter when it reach my heart. I bought it, but I didn't eat it. I put it in my bag, in case I will meet you on the street. I bring it along, everywhere, but I don't eat it. I prefer chocolate, more.

I don't leave comment, anymore, on my facebook. I sign in, but I didn't pay much attention. What had happened to my friend? Busy, perhaps, I don't know. I don't ask. I bought a lots of clothes lately, and all of it, reminds me of you. I found out that I choose the same color that you'd always wore. I like the color you choose, as I like white, lots.

But, I don't pass your place anymore. I don't give a damn. I'm not happy. Who cares? The day when you cares, I will far gone. It doesn't matter anymore. Whether I like you or not. Cause I choose to shut up.

Surprisingly, you're not in sight, but you're closer than you were. I don't know you that well. But you won't go away. Thank god! I have such a strong memory. When did I install such an incredible hard disk in my head? I had no answer for that. But I remember everything, too well. Clear in mind.

I won't buy lollipop anymore. I don't hate the sun anymore. I'm not scared of the dark anymore. Let it all end with October. Is not a nightmare.Is not a dream. Is reality, fact....truth. We don't know each other. And I know, we won't know, since you never ask while I always wish I could ask more.So I stop, when you seems like you don't care. Put a full stop.

October Ends. Our story Ends.

Empty

I don't talk much anymore.Something happened, a long time ago.I don't remember when was it, maybe it was because I always choose to forget, all those pain memory, that's why I can't remember when.And I think, it was since then that I started to talk less, about my life.I'd been quiet, for quite a long time, long enough,til now I figured out I had always choose to shut up, than to called my best pal and speak it out loud.

Was it because I always press the mute button, my life become so silence, and peace from the outside, but noises everywhere, til I can't stop it, in the inside? I don't know. Whenever I feel want to go out, I get stuck in the doorway, 'cause there's no one I could look for to accompany me. I don't want to be alone.But I am. And I always are. My life was now, like a machine. Doing the same thing, repeat the same thing everyday. People were laughing, I was too, but I was alone. I don't called on the phone anymore. I don't sms anymore. It was like, I have no friend, at all.

I thought I get used to it. Since I always was alone, started from my childhood. I played alone, talked to my toys, alone.I listened to music on the radio, sang every song I knew. I knew I told myself that everything won't be the same as I grow up and make lots of friends. But, look around me. It was still the same. I was trapped. In the silence life that I'd build for myself.

Was it because I had too cautious when come to pick a friend? Or was it because I was too choosy? I seldom open the door for the new one to come in. I greet them, I smile back, I pour them tea...but I never open up my heart to accept them. They were merely a guest, come and go. And I get used to it. I let them go, and never expect they will come back again, to visit me. That's why, I was alone, wasn't it? 

And now, there only left three friends who know me well enough til I don't feel shame to cry in front of them. I love them and appreciated every memory I had with them. But sometimes, I still have to face everything, alone. I thought I get used to it, but.....day after day, it was like living in the nightmare, in the dark, it was empty.

I was empty. On the inside. Is so dark in here, and empty.

Close To You - Carpenters

Why do birds suddenly appear

Every time you are near?

Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.

Why do stars fall down from the sky

Every time you walk by?

Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.

On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.

That is why all the girls in town
Follow you all around.
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.

On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.

That is why all the girls in town
Follow you all around.

Just like me, they long to be

Close to you.
Just like me (Just like me)
They long to be

Close to you.

*Actually, I was,only,the shadow,of the picture. And, a shadow, in your life. It never was, a dream comes true. In fact, it was like, living in the shadow, of my dream....*

我有故事要说。(二)

记得吗？是谁跑去你面前，把娃娃放在你前面，然后转身就跑的人？
记得吗？是谁每次经过你的店，都会对你招手，对你笑？
记得吗？是谁每次去见你，就会送你棒棒糖？
记得吗？是谁因为你一句“他现在一定跟你在一起”的话，哭得乱七八糟？
记得吗？是谁要求你，别在她的面前抽烟？
记得吗？是谁因为你只有十八岁而吓了一大跳？
记得吗？是谁跟你要过照片？
记得吗？是谁心情很乱时，都不肯跟你说？
记得吗？是谁在祝福你中秋节快乐时，自己却在窗口听狗在吠？
记得吗？是谁要你在电话里唱生日歌给她听的？
又记得吗？你答应过我，当你要离开的那一天，你一定会告诉我？
你也说过，你一定会来找我？　

你可能不记得，你甚至可能都没记过。可是，我记得。虽然不记得是哪天哪月，可
是，那些回忆，我都记得。

我记得，你在来找我之前，你派你的同事来帮你问话。我记得当天，我穿红色的外
套，跟我当天，从你面前赶快逃跑时，是同一件的。我记得，过后你来找我时，我
红透了脸，时不时用手遮着嘴巴笑。我记得，当时我真的很惊喜、很意外、也很感
动。我也记得，当时你，对着我笑。我更记得，要不是我的上司在看，要不是我当
时刚要开工，我是多么想继续留下去跟你聊天的。

我记得，在我忙着找钱时，看到你再次出现在我店里。我记得，当时我以为自己开
心过头，看到你的影子在角落那看书，原来并不是，而是真的是你在那闲逛。我记
得，当时我多么希望你会走过来跟我说话。我也记得，你最终还是走掉没停下时，
我告诉自己，你是因为看到我忙个不停所以不过来打扰的。我更是记得，就算当时
你没有停下来跟我讲话，我还是很开心，因为我的直觉告诉我，你是来看我的，而
根本不是来找书的。

我记得，我问过你是什么座的。我记得，当你说你是五月生日时，然后叫我猜时，
我马上说是一号。我记得，当时的我，吓了一跳，觉得怎会又那么准，上天又让我
遇到五月一号生日的人。我也记得，当时的你也吓倒，问我怎么会知道？我记得，
你说我变猪，也是蛮可爱的。我也记得，你答应我一起吃饭，可是你先走了。我更
记得，因为是第一次跟你一同用餐，我紧张到手在抖，不知你是否注意到，可是当
时没把牛肉面吃完的我，就是因为紧张过头吃不下去的原因。

我记得很多。你呢？我记得到，可以把我们之间的事写成故事，甚至可以出书了。


我也记得，从一开始到现在，我都是一个人。这个故事，一直都只有我一个人继续
演下去。我一直都是一个人，因为男主角，不演了。不，应该是说，他从来没答应
过要一起演。所以，我才会那么珍惜。一个人很孤单。可是，一个人，也可以讲故
事。

请不要怪我，把我们的事情讲的那么伟大。我只是希望它，不会不见。我绝对不会
让它不见。就算到最后，我还是一个人。我不怕。因为我选择，把你记住。

今天是十月十九号。

我们一个礼拜没见到对方了。

是我决定，不去见你的。是我决定，不再从你的的店经过，不让你看到我的。

可以说我在逃避。我以逃避来，忘记你。是的，我打算忘记你。

可是很好笑耶。一个礼拜后，我们又见面了。又是一个礼拜后。上次也是这样，现在
也是。上次，我也是打算忘记你，所以坚持不去找你，不经过你的店的。可是一个
礼拜后，你来了，你到我的店，来到我的面前，跟我说，你要我帮你找书。现在，
也是一个礼拜后，你，跟我，又再次，在我的店见面。

不过这次，你不是来找我。你是来买东西的，好像是买笔擦的，或是涂改液的。我
没去注意。只是，转角看见你时，我除了吓倒，既然还心跳加速。我不知道，原来
隔了这么久（其实并没那么久，就那么一个礼拜。。。可是我就是觉得好久）再遇
到你，我还是一样会紧张。我以为不会了，原来还是一样。原来还是一样在意。。。
我不知道，你看到我的那一瞬间，是什么感觉。也不知道，你看我的那个表情，是
什么意思？你也吓了一跳吗？以为不会见到我，结果我突然出现。你看起来很惊讶。。。
怎么啦？你也跟我一样，逃避对方，可是最终还是见面，结果吓倒吗？这是我做工
的地方，在这里遇到我，没什么奇怪啊，为什么你看起来。。。很奇怪？

不过这次，我没过去，跟你聊天。你看起来，不需要我帮忙，我问你是来买东西的
吗，你也没答。所以，我没过去问，我继续我的工作。我没理你。说真的，我每天
都期待你来买东西，因为我以为，除了可以见你，也可以像上次一样，趁机跟你聊
天。可是今天，你来了，我既然不想留在你身边。因为你没回答我的问题吗？对，
我被你伤到，所以我也假装没事，不理你，我一样没事。可能你没听到，因为我的
声音不大。应该是没听到吧。唉。。。随便啦。有没有，都不管了。你逗留不久，
选好后，你就走了。在走之前，你走过来，跟我说“我要走了”。而我，只跟你说，
好，ＢＹＥ　ＢＹＥ。然后看着你离开。

我难过，眼泪快飙出来。忍，忍住。没有必要为了一点小事哭。我忍！ＯＫ啊！熬
过去了。那一刻，我既然，不喜欢你来我的店买东西了。以后，可不可以，别在一
个礼拜后出现。可不可以，别出现？我都不去打扰你了，你可不可以，别来我的世
界，打招呼？你本来就是这样的，忽冷忽热的，我干嘛难过。我应该习惯了才对啊。
你要不要理我，是你的事啊。我干嘛在意。你有权力选择，要不要理我啊。我为什
么不高兴？我是不高兴你没跟我说话，可是见到你，我还是一样很开心。我忍很久
耶。耐好久耶。我曾经偷偷地想你耶。你都不知道。不过，知道后，又怎样？对吧？


没错，你是蛮冷淡的。我早就该习惯。你那冷酷的脸，之前也见过啦。你也是人，
你也有累了的时候，你也有，不开心的时候啊。而且你，应该是伤风了。你走了，
再见。我还是不会去找你的。

我是不会去找你，也不会去见你的。可是，下午吃饭后，我在你的店经过了。不是
我要的，是我的同事带我那边过的。我是有偷偷地的望进去看你。你很忙，在柜台
写东西，而你的经理，就站在你旁边。你没看到我。我也没期待什么，真的。看到
你，够了。从以前到现在，都一样。对你，我从没要求很多，能够看到你，就够了。


不过，今天上天疼我，他让我们不只见面一次。对，我是常常偷去看你。可是，要
面对面见到对方，机会就比较少。但老天让我们再次见到对方。今晚，我在关店时，
偷偷跑去电梯口，望下去看你拉铁门，关店。虽然没看到你的脸，可是我已经很开
心。后来，我就回店里等ＣＡＳＨＩＥＲ算钱。我累了，累到整个人坐在地上，随
便抽书出来看。

突然，有男生跑来，在我们的店门口，呱呱叫，不知道在讲什么。我以为是刚刚迟
迟不走的那对情侣，有东西忘了拿。起来看。。。咦？那个男生？怎么那么熟啊？
哎！那不是你吗？你跟你的同事，来这里找停车卷。原来你的同事把她的停车卷，
弄丢了，还在我们这里弄丢的。哇！太好了啦！可以在见到你耶！哈哈！不过我们
并没认真找，我的同事叫你另外按多一张就可以出了，也不用被罚钱后，你们就走
了。当然，好事现在才发生，因为你临走前，望回来，对我笑着招手耶。好久没看
到你这样对着我笑耶！我好开心耶！我同事看到都觉得不对劲，问我干嘛那么兴奋，
人家弄丢停车卷，我兴奋什么？你看吧，你真的很特别耶！就算我们没办法手牵手，
可是你在我心里，就是有一个特别的位子。

现在是这样，以后也会是这样。我要把你的好留住，记住，还会好好珍惜。

R & R, I won't tell.

今天是十月十六号

知道吗？蘑菇　＋　蛋　＋　胡椒粉　＋　蚝油　＋　酱油　＝　我的午餐，晚餐。
因为不喜欢一个人吃饭，连续四餐，我吃同样的食物。然后，就是吃一大堆的零食。
我不是在弦耀，没有你的日子，我真的过得“好惨”。有食物，好过没食物吃耶。
只是，一个人吃，煮那么多好料，想干吗？浪费材料。蘑菇炒蛋，很好吃啊。只是
冷了后，就。。。哎呀，什么食物都该趁热吃才好吃的啦。

没有人带我出门玩，我就借书回家看。这本书，叫ＫＩＳＳ　ＭＥ　ＫＩＬＬ　ＭＥ。
我看了那么久，怎么看，都看不完。那么薄的书，有心的话，一天之内，就可以看
完啦。没心的人，再好看的书，他也只是看图画，不看字。老实说，最近因为你不
在，我常一个人熬夜。噢！别误会哦！不是想你想过头。是我看连续剧，看到忘记
睡觉。像昨晚，我看到凌晨三点半才睡。起来时，眼睛像熊猫一样。

然后，我无聊到，在外面狂风暴雨时，站在门口那，把晃啊晃的树拍下来。外面很冷
耶。没带雨伞的人，怎么办？没驾车，而是走路的人，怎么办？骑电单车的人，又
怎么办？那个雷公公又和雷婆婆吵架啦。这次又是谁搞外遇啦？哎呀！管他谁搞外
遇，你们家里的事，何必吵得那么大声，大到全世界的人都听得到？不羞耻吗？越
吵越大声，连地面在震动，都感觉得到耶。哇！你们哪来的力量啊？可以吼那么大
声？

最后，我打算把头发绑的更高。可是怎么绑，就是只能这么高而已。唉。。。不过，
仔细瞧瞧，就会发现到，我身后的房间，很乱吧？对啊，你不在家，我就不收拾房
间。一个人的房间，东西要怎么放，关你什么事啊？可是还是受不了，所以你放心
好啦，这只是一下而已。你也知道，我讨厌脏乱。地板也一样擦干净了。只是，一
个人睡，我把全部的抱枕啊，枕头啊，都拿来用。所以，我很忙啊，七个枕头抱枕
很难一口气同时用完耶。

快点回家啦！

 

败犬女王

有看过败犬女王吗？

单无双，是一个三十三岁的女强人（寂寞的女强人）。三十三岁了，还没找到另一
半。三十三岁了，还要一个人过圣诞节。嘴巴狠毒，个性好强，脾气倔强，自尊心
强，是个工作狂，是个十分讨人厌的臭女人。

我喜欢单无双。从以前，我就想当女强人。有成功的事业，不必靠男人，赚自己的
钱，花自己的钱，用不着男人来养，继续追自己的梦。可是，这个败犬，单无双，
她好强倔强，内心却脆弱得要死。她常常一个人躲起来哭。她帮人的方法很另类，
就是打死都不告诉对方，就算让对方误会了，她也不肯承认她其实只是想在帮忙。


单无双悄悄爱上了一个年龄小他八岁的男生。她没告诉他。她静静地度过每一天，
其实她在等一个人。她在等，她生活里很重要的一个人。那个人，没有原因的，一
声不响地走了。而单无双，苦苦的，一个人等了六年。那个人走后，单无双每天的
生活只剩吃饭睡觉做工，梦想也从此不见了。

在她寂寞地等了六年后，这个小天使出现了。这个男生告诉她，她值得被人真心对
待，因为她再怎么坏，她也是一个可爱的佛地魔女。小天使让她看到新希望，让她
改变惹人厌的性格，让她找回美丽的自己。

单无双的寂寞，跟我一样。虽然，我并没有在苦苦地等一个人，可是我也有得不到
的那个人。我也常常一个人，躲起来哭。我也曾经，在圣诞夜时，一个人度过。还
有，我也曾经，悄悄地，爱上了一个比我年幼的男生。

我也是嘴巴狠毒的女生（虽然不是常常），也曾经变过惹人厌的人。我也常常不对
自己的感情坦白，宁愿把自己弄痛，也不让对方知道。更好笑的是，我不急着嫁人，
觉得，要嘛，就年过三十岁后再打算。甚至，有不想结婚的念头。

单无双注重工作，一切都要求做到最好。对，不管什么事，都要做到最好，尽所有
的努力还有用心。我对自己做的所有事情，也是要求很高。只有男人，没有。我只
要对方看得到我的存在，爱我的存在，就够了。

我也是，表面上坚强，里内却脆弱得像气球，一碰就破。曾经，有个叫家福的人，
来过我的世界。他看到我的不完美。说话一针见血地，毫无留情地，要我承认我的
脆弱。他说：“你很喜欢装坚强，内心其实很脆弱。”被他说中，我整个人是很不
服气，但内心点头后，我整个人就崩溃地哭了。在他面前，我总是赤裸裸，任何秘
密都藏不住。就跟单无双一样，被人痛恨地打倒，也不哭。等到小天使来到身边，
才不知丑地流泪。

单无双跟我很像。让我想，以后，搞不好我会变得跟她一样。失去一些重要的人，
要苦苦守到他回来。对，那个重要的人，六年后，回来了。原来，他们之间有误会。
所以，彼此都以为自己失去了对方。熬了那么久，原来有人故意让他们分开。看到
他们终于把误会解开的那一集，我感动到，哭得稀里哗啦，纸巾一张又一张的粘上
了恶心的鼻涕（哈哈！）

可是，问题就来了。单无双，会回到她苦苦等了六年的这个重要人士身边，还是去
小天使的天堂呢？她会怎么做选择呢？说真的，换成是我，我会回去。回到那个曾
经住在我心里，那个很重要的人，的家，我们的家。就算我对别人动了情，有了感
觉，我还是会回去，我从始至终一直守候着的那个人身边。因为，从一开始，我就
因为他而找到了家。到外面跑了一整天，人累了，最终不都是想着要回家吗？而这
个，就是唯一的，我跟单无双的不同点。

我们都很在乎男生比自己小的事实。我们也都不承认（虽然她最后承认了），对对
方有感觉，想留在对方的身边。可是，单无双很勇敢，她选择继续冒险，飞向新的
天堂，牵她不熟悉的手，跟新主人住了。而我，我回家。我选择，回到自己最熟悉
的地方，闻自己最熟悉的味道，牵自己最熟悉的手，跟原来的主人，继续完成，未
完成的梦。

不管是单无双，还是黄秀玲，每一个女生，都有为自己做选择的权利。凭感觉，其
实也没那么糟，因为感觉一对了，什么事都会开花的，不是吗？最重要，是选择，
可以让自己还有另一半开心的事。所有的女生们，要加油啊！
 

今天是十月十三号

一个人吃饭，不好吃。一个人逛街，不好看。一个人睡，没温暖。

我不喜欢一个人。一个人吃饭，一个人逛街，一个人睡觉。我很不喜欢。

以前，我觉得家人很重要。没有家人，我无家可归。后来，我觉得朋友，姐妹很重

要。没有朋友，我没有日记。最后，我觉得，男朋友很重要。没有男朋友，我的翅

膀，不见了。

我的家人是我的天堂。今年的生日，我的愿望，是希望我的家人永远快乐幸福。我

的姐妹是我的天空，让我可以继续飞，不怕受伤害。今年，我跟欣芯说，不管怎样，

我都不想失去她这个朋友。我的男朋友是我的天使，他在我的翅膀受伤时，抱着我

让我继续飞，不堕落回地面。可是，今天，他不在我身边。

他出门了。我们是第一次分开。

我很不习惯。我很寂寞。我很难受。这里好静。

我常常要他陪我逛街。他上班时，我因为一个人，所以选择不吃饭。

因为我不喜欢一个人。不喜欢一人吃饭，一个人逛街。。。

太静。。。我不喜欢。

当两个变成一个，会很安静。当两个变成一个，会很寂寞。

这里很静。。。。

＊我爱我的小事＊

一个月过去了。我们的故事，却在还没满一个月前就结束了。

其实，它并没有结束。因为并没有人帮我们画上句号。可能你有，可是我没有。只

是，没有人想继续演下去，也没有人打算帮我们把故事讲完。

我们之间发生的，其实都是小事。在别人眼里，可能真的是很小很小的事情，不值

得庆祝又不值得高兴的事情。可是，随着时间的流失，慢慢地，我发现，这些小事，

并不小。

因为它填满我生活的一部分。它让我有回忆。以后，它让我可以回味，让我的生活，

少了遗憾，还有后悔。

没有人知道，你对我笑的那个画面，牢牢的被刻在我脑海里；你对我说过的话，像

我爱听的音乐，不停地在重播；你的幼稚，让我希望你永远别长大；你的声音，我

好想问你，我可不可以把它录下来？

有了这些小事，它让我们发现，原来快乐可以就那么地简单，生活可以过得精彩。

很多人，小看生活里的小事，但他们却忘了，没有了这些小事，他们的生活更是空

空荡荡，不是吗？很多人不珍惜这些小事，所以失去后，就觉得自己从此一无所有，

从头到尾都是在浪费时间。从此，就觉得自己在这个世界上，活得很没意义。

我很珍惜我的小事。我的会忆，没有人可以偷走，没有人可以把它擦掉。我把我的

每一段回忆，收藏得很好。每一次拿出来，我都会微笑，觉得，还好当时我有那么

做，所以现在的“相簿”五颜六色，现在的“笔记本”，很多故事好看。

我并不是作家。所以，我并没把所有的回忆都写出来。有的故事，自己知道，自己

记得，就好。不是每一件事，都要讲出来，才会快乐。有些事，讲了出来，可是却

伤了别人，那样是不好的啊。

我的小事，除了让我笑，有的其实，也让我哭。我哭，因为，原以为它可以是那么

美，可是却因为我的一个不小心，被污染了，弄脏了。我哭，因为，我们把彼此的

画画，给涂鸦了。我哭，因为，我让图中的你，流泪了。我哭，因为，我们在途中，

迷失了方向，看不到对方的存在，原来还是一样的美。　

我不会用语言来形容我们之间的事。既然不会，那就没必要。我不强迫自己做，伤

害自己的事，还有自己不会的事。我更不会，强迫我爱的人，做他们不爱的事。没

有必要。不要想太多。一切顺其自然，生活，才能继续被自己操控。

就像，我把我们的小事，看得那么珍贵一样。以后的以后，永永远远，都不会被谁

打扰。

我有故事要说。

二十一岁的生日，很特别。我的好朋友，虽然离我很远，但她却在半夜十二点时播电
话来，为的就是唱歌给我听。我的大姑，因为身体不舒服，不能来参加我的生日会，
所以也是通过电话，唱生日歌给我，祝福我。还有另外一个人，他跟我只是普普通
通的朋友(但对我而言，　他却是那么的特别)，　也在电话里，唱歌给我听。现在
回想起来，那天既然越来越遥远。回想起来真的会让自己鼻酸，眼泪快从眼睛流出
来了。。。

你真的很特别。可能，是因为我喜欢你的关系吧。至今我都不后悔，当天跑去送娃
娃给你的那个傻女孩，我不觉得她笨。。。

要听一个故事吗?

第一次见到他，她对自己说：“世界上怎么会有那么可爱的人啊?”

是在转角的那也一瞬间看到他的。知道有他在那里做工之后，她在每一天的每一天，
都会从那边经过。不管是吃午餐或吃晚餐，只要有机会，一定要从那边过，为的就
是看他多一眼。有时，他不在，不是当天放假，就是他当时出去了。没见到他，她
心情低落；见到他，仿佛见到天使般，她心情晴朗。

光看还不够，这个女孩是有点贪心。。。她想认识他。每一天回家后，她都在想办
法，想计划。她超想认识他的。于是，她想到了一个点子。超幼稚的点子。她决定
要送他ＢＥＡＲ　ＢＥＡＲ。因为她在一次闲逛的时候，看到了一个超可爱得ＢＥ
ＡＲ　ＢＥＡＲ。就在那一刻，她就下定决心，要把那个长得跟他一样可爱的熊娃
娃送给他。
 

熊娃娃是黄色的，它的肚子有个太阳。而女孩想表达的意思就是，你就像我天空中，
照亮我世界的太阳，让我每天的心情晴朗。用熊娃娃来跟一个人交朋友，说真的，
这个点子是笨的可以的女孩才会想到吧？

熊娃娃虽然小，可是却不便宜。二十三块耶。从来不乱花钱的她，既然毫不犹疑的，
拿了熊娃娃，就马上还钱了。当时她刚和同事们一起吃完午餐。各走各的时候，她
又是故意的经过他的店。她看到他了。他是一个人耶！她心想着，好机会来了。于
是，她便开开心心地冲上楼，快速地走进娃娃店，买下了黄色的熊娃娃。

她的心情激动，兴奋。简直就像要飞上天一样。连跑带跳的，她冲下楼。但是，抵
达他店门口的那一刹那，她心跳加速到，呼吸困难。(说真的，当时哪来的勇气，我
也不懂。。。若现在还能像当时那样冲动性的勇敢，那该有多好。)结果，她停在店
门口，不敢进去。“都到这里了，进去吧！”　她对自己说。深呼吸。对，进去吧！
所以，她就迅速地走进去，走到他的面前(柜台)。她看着他。他有点吓倒地抬起头，
好奇地看着她。

就在他们面对面的时候。。。哎呀！不妙！怎么店里边还有另外一个人啊？今天不
是就他一个人看店吗？？？我的妈呀！不管了！“这个，送给你！”她紧张地说道。
然后，迅速地，她把熊娃娃放在柜台上后，自己就马上，很快的，转身就跑。

“妈呀！丢脸死了！”她回过头看，幸好，他没追过来。因为，如果他追过来，她
应该也是不懂的回应吧！　“怎么会有人啊？？笨死了！丢脸死了啦！”她是超糗
的。在那同时，她也是超紧张，兴奋的。终于，她做到了！　ＹＥＳ！虽然结果跟
原本计划的不一样。

我就是那样认识你的。

就是那样，我有故事好写。

Let it Fade Away

I cheated to myself. I knew it from the very beginning. I couldn't help it but keep giving myself lame excuses that you are not like that, you just don't like to show it, while the fact is, you're just not that into me. I knew it.You never give me a call, even a msg. You did it before, not after you saw I was with someone else...holding hands, cross the street.  You like me before, but not now. I know that but I denied it. How stupid I was to act so. I'm throwing my self-esteem right out the window. You never come to me. You smile, but it was just a smile. A smile to welcome a FRIEND. Yeah, merely friend. I'd expected more. Even though I know I shouldn't have, on you. What a waste of time. I'm pretty enough to wait for other to comes and ask me out for a date. Why should I still waiting for YOU? I know you never like me. Even if you do, It was ONLY for a while. Not until you saw HIM, exist in my life. Perhaps, you'd been wished too, that I would just admit to you that I like you...But I never! How Sad! But that's better than I Make confession til in the end will embarrass myself more and make you guilty. I never told you How much I like you. How lucky and smart. 'Cause YOU, never wanted more FROM me. If you likes me, you will call me. If you likes me, you will find me. If you, ARGH..........! It was only an "IF". Thus, I'm letting you go. Let it fade away. I will keep the best of you in my mind. I know it worth it, for me, NOT you. 'Cause I appreciate every moments and minutes I had spent with you. SO, let it be. Let the wave takes it all away, wash it away...back to the ocean that I thought I once knew. It's just another goodbye and farewell in this Never-Gonna-Work relationship.

White Horse - Taylor Swift

Say you're sorry
That face of an angel comes out
Just when you need it to
As I pace back and forth all this time
'Cause
I honestly believed in you
Holdin' on,
The days drag on
Stupid girl
I should've known, I should've known

That I'm not a princess
This ain't a fairytale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood,
This is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now its too late for you and your White Horse,
To come around.

Maybe I was naive,
Got lost in your eyes
I never really had a chance.
My mistake, I didn't know to be in love
you had to fight to have the upper hand.
I had so many dreams about you and me
Happy endings;
Now I know

I'm not a princess
This ain't a fairytale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood,
This is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down.
Now its too late for you and your White Horse,
To come around.

 

And there you are on your knees
Begging for forgiveness,
Begging for me
Just like I always wanted,
But I'm so sorry

Cause Im not your princess
This aint a fairytale
Im gonna find someone, Some day
Who might actually treat me well.
This is a big world,
That was a small town
There in my rearview mirror,
Disappearing now.
And it's too late for you and your White Horse,
Now its too late for you and your White Horse

To catch me now.

Lollipops And Bear Bear

Give you a bear.

Showing some love.

But I don't tell the truth.

And my bear won't talk too.

Maybe I should do it this way.

Wrote it on my palm.

And show it to you.

Yet,

Perhaps you'll think it's just an art of creativity.

If only love could be that simple.

If only I dare enough to tell you.

If only I dare enough to run to you.

If only I could just spread my love to you.

I don't know who loves you.

And Honestly I don't want to know.

I don't care.

But I know I will.

Be the one who loves you.

Maybe I'm the one that love you.

Right now.

And you just don't know.

Probably,

I should tell you.

Then We will become like this.

Holding hand.

And the Lollipop.

Is our Memories.

Love

If you ask me, am I happy with my relationship that I had with my boyfriend now. I will say yes. But then again, if you ask me, did I find my true love yet? I will confuse. And tell you that I don’t know.

          What is true love anyway? The song I hear right now sound like this “I knew I love you before I met you”. Will I have a change to feel in such a way? Will I find my true love one day? Will I love him before I meet him? Will he love me the way I love him?

          There is so much to ask, so much to know, about love. Because there is so much answers that you could get from when you ask other about it. I love the song sang by Savage Garden, as their song sound so sweet and make you feel like even miracle could happen in your love.

          Now, the only thing I know about love is that, it makes you smile, weep, scream like hell, pain like cutting and bleed. The day you learn to love other, is actually the day you learn how to face with yourself, love yourself and accept yourself. Do you agree with this? When you have a person to love, you started to learn how to miss them, care about them, looking for them and even waiting for them. There is so much to know about love, because, LOVE IS A LESSON.

I once saw, people who cried for love. They did it when they felt touch, hurt, over happy or even disappointed & depressed. I did cry for love too. When I had been dump, by a man, who I thought, he loved me just the way I did for him. I laugh and SMILE too, when I feel the love is around me and surely it can cheer me up.

          Just like the other, I am now still looking for true love. I don’t know what it is. And honestly again, I don’t know how does it approach our life. They said, when love come, everything you eat will be sweet, even if it is just a plain bun, with nothing inside; they said, when love come, you will feel a courage come to you from no way; and they even said, when love come, you would smile in your sleep and even sometimes, sleep with tears too.

          I saw love, in my mother’s eyes. She loves my dad, me and all of my family. I saw love in my sister’s eyes too. She loves me and everyone who she thinks she should. I love my dad and mum. But I can’t tell. Is not that I DON’T want to, yet I don’t know how. How should we express our love to other?? How are you going to define love to other? How to show it to other? There is so much to do to show it anyway. We could do so by helping them. Give them a helping hand when they call for help. Be there for them when they need a shoulder to cry on.

          LOVE IS A PROCESS. It could get started; then it will end (will it be a happy ending or a grief ness ending). It comes and goes. It could start from the first moment we meet with someone new (a customer to our restaurant could also be our next beloved). It could start from the first glance we made to a person who is standing in front of us. Love could end in lots of way too. Usually people say love is gone when someone we love dump and left us behind. It could also happen when we dump someone we used to love before for a reason (some people might do it without reason too). They even will use the MOST LAMP reason as their explanation (which, actually, is an excuse for being blamed).

People put love as their dreams, aims or hopes. Love comes in no way. But we could feel it in our heart. In which, this means, LOVE IS A FEELING. Love is a way of to happiness. We smile and laugh because we fall in love with the right one. We down and weep when we feel we fall in love with the wrong one. Love brings emotions to our life. It leads us to taste the different flavor of life in this world. Bitter (grief), sweet (happy), sour (jealous), and spicy (hot and angry). 

Love makes a person beautiful. They thought they're such a mess, such a disaster, but with the love one stood beside them and give them support, they feel worth it. They won't feel lost anymore 'cause there's someone who would hold on still for them when they fall. They won't be lonely 'cause someone will always brings laughter to their life.

Love is great. Is pure. Is innocence. Is a miracle. Is amazing.

Everyone is looking for true love. Happy endings will always the most important thing to foresee in love. But who will be the prince? Or the princess in the end of the story? Could I write my own fairy tale? My own story? Could I choose whom I would love to go with?

I don't know........

I Won't Tell You How Much I Like You

The Way you Smile, Light Up My Day.
You're like a sun, Bring the warmness to my Life.
I love the way you stop and talk to me;
Love the way you wave and glance at me;
Give you the lollipop was only a excuses, to meet you.
Have you notice about that?
I guess you won't
And you will never know.
I go and find you because I wish to see you again,
Is not really because I want to give you the lollipop...
I like you a lot...
But I'm not sure you feel the same way as I do.
My life could be so easy...
Just to see you in one glance,
I could fly high into the sky and touch the soft cloud.
But you will never know,
For I won't ever tell...
How Much I like you