Let it Fade Away

I cheated to myself. I knew it from the very beginning. I couldn't help it but keep giving myself lame excuses that you are not like that, you just don't like to show it, while the fact is, you're just not that into me. I knew it.You never give me a call, even a msg. You did it before, not after you saw I was with someone else...holding hands, cross the street.  You like me before, but not now. I know that but I denied it. How stupid I was to act so. I'm throwing my self-esteem right out the window. You never come to me. You smile, but it was just a smile. A smile to welcome a FRIEND. Yeah, merely friend. I'd expected more. Even though I know I shouldn't have, on you. What a waste of time. I'm pretty enough to wait for other to comes and ask me out for a date. Why should I still waiting for YOU? I know you never like me. Even if you do, It was ONLY for a while. Not until you saw HIM, exist in my life. Perhaps, you'd been wished too, that I would just admit to you that I like you...But I never! How Sad! But that's better than I Make confession til in the end will embarrass myself more and make you guilty. I never told you How much I like you. How lucky and smart. 'Cause YOU, never wanted more FROM me. If you likes me, you will call me. If you likes me, you will find me. If you, ARGH..........! It was only an "IF". Thus, I'm letting you go. Let it fade away. I will keep the best of you in my mind. I know it worth it, for me, NOT you. 'Cause I appreciate every moments and minutes I had spent with you. SO, let it be. Let the wave takes it all away, wash it away...back to the ocean that I thought I once knew. It's just another goodbye and farewell in this Never-Gonna-Work relationship.