Manager

I am not a good manager.

I am not good in managing people. I had tried my very best to swallow back my anger, control my tone and pitches. Yet, I know, I'm not a good manager.

Is really hard to control your emotions. The more I hold back everything so I won't hurt you with my words, the more stress I had produced for myself.

You see, is not easy to protect other people, because you have to bleed first. This is what they called sacrifice, I guess.

I have to handle and act as example, you know.

I could make jokes around like I used to but at the same time I have to give advises and making sure that you fully understand what is going on and why it is going on, you know.

I feel suffocating but I won't tell, you know.

I am tired but still I love this company, you know.

I feel upset with some customer, some employee, some supplier, you know. But I still have to stand up tall, you know. To prove that I can do it( because I really believe that I could).

Yet.I am not a good manager, you know. Even though I try so hard.

There's something missing. I guess it will always be. To remind myself that I should keep on learning, and never ever give up so easily.

I represent my outlet,you know.

Is not easy, I want to protect it and prove that I could.

I am not a good manager, yet.


There is a long way to go. I could continue the journey alone, right? I know I will meet with someone special in the middle of nowhere, when I am almost lost.

Like I met Ellis, and George.

And Daddy Lee, who supports me all the time.

Thank you for everything.