Happy Father's Day

It was hard this month. Not because I have to work harder. But because, unexpected things had happened. And it torn me apart. Hurt me deep inside, the scars left and difficult to recover.

Well, I try to put that away. And thanks to TEO CHOW SIUNG, he was there and I tried to put my focus on him. And thanks to myself, because I listen to Daddy Lee, then I further my study, and there I am, focusing on the lecturer, so I won't think about those hurtful things that happened, behind my back.

Then come this, Father's Day.




I never celebrate Father's Day, in my life. My dad passed away when I was seven. I never know what it would be like, if he is here now.

Those friends posted greetings for their dearest father. I wonder how they feel. Well...I know how they feel. I know the love is hard to described. How to put it into words?

I love my dad too. Even though I don't know him much. I damn know and damn sure I love him, even though he's no longer here.



Then I posted for Daddy Lee. He's not my dad. We called it "Godfather". Well, I called him "Godfather". I can't remember why it turn into this way. But I shared my problems with him, not just problems, more than that. I told him a lot of things, I don't know why I did it. I just did. And he treats me like one of his daughter. He cares, I know. He helps. Advises and laugh with me. We talks, like friends, like boss to employee, like father and daughter, like silly people. It just happen, and I accept.

But still, something is missing. Maybe is because he's not my real dad. Something is....different.

Happy Father's day. To every daddy in the world. To dad. To Daddy Lee.

I wonder what does it feel, if dad is here?

Whether you Like It or Not

Whether you like me or not. Whether you're satisfy or not.

I am here, in this position. Being myself. Doing the right thing I should've done and act the way I should.

And I'm doing my best.

Whether you want it or not. I'm the leader here. So fuck off and shut up your mouth.

Stab me from the back won't do you any good and won't get you anywhere.

You want to ruin yourself is all up to you.

Want to bitching around I don't care.

Because I'm doing my job here, and I'm doing my best here.

Whether you like it or not, any bitches won't kill me. And I won't fall. I will be strong and tough.

Whether you like it or not, is non of your business. When they look for manager, I'm in charge.

Whether you like it or not, decision will be made by me.

Whether you like it or not, you are following my orders, my instructions.

Whether you like it or not, once I'm still here, I am your leader.

So shut up and do your work, if you wish you get paid.

I won't fall. I will always stand tall. No matter how tired or upset I am with your emotional behaviour.


You're sick. And there is no doctor wants to heal you. Cause you're not worth saving. No matter how they support you and become as negative as you are, you will never be on my place, believe it or not. You will never be a leader.

Whether you like or not.

As long as I am still in charge, I won't let you defeat me.

Whether you like it or not. Whether I'm suffocating or not.

I won't let all those seniors who had been supported me all this while, down. I will not.

I will not, I promise them and I had promised myself as well.

Whether you like it or not.