How's Your Break?

Do you know what is the best thing of not being blind? With your eyes, you really could SEE a lots of things, which include, of course, human. Today was the last day of my holidays in SG, and tomorrow, even though my flight is in the evening, but I don't think I will go anywhere in the morning as I have to pack my thing(well, some of it already packed, or should I said most of it already packed, is just that I have no more space to add-in any new items if I go for shopping again tomorrow morning before I leave). Is not that I'm sad to leave, but is like, hey, I think there is some place I don't really spend my time in there, is like time is never enough, especially when it comes to shopping. Still, I really glad that I have eyes, and I could see with my eyes, because there is so much to see, and of course, the best thing is, a lots of hot and handsome man to see. HAHA....

Well, today was another busy day for me. We went to the Bird Park(woke up early on 6.00am today, only to reach there on 9.00am something-my sis told me we have to follow her husband car, where he usually will left for work on 7.00am, but end up he said we don't have to departure so early and he will send us there after breakfast- that is after eight...so is like "OMG, then why I have to wake up on 6.00am????) and came back home for a short nap- take a break- and went out again for dinner and movie - we watched "BRAVE" the Disney animation, which is funny in the beginning, and touching in the end of the story(like all those happily ever after Disney story, the difference is there is no Prince for the Princess in the Happily Ever After part- but sure she's happy because she managed to save her mother and turn her mother back into human- from a black huge bear to human). It really was a busy day, but worth it, especially when I get to take a lot of photos of birds(even though I was quite scared) and like the last time, I took pictures until my camera's battery finally flat and exhausted. Hehe....

Oh...almost twelve, I have to go now. Good Night. Talk to you later XD

1989年

我记得,第一次去上课的时候.那时,有点紧张.当然会紧张啦,毕竟我离开学校也已经有...三年了.三年过后才重新回去上课,要怎么尊敬老师也差点忘了(不过比起那些在后面讲废话讲个不停就算了,还笑得很八婆的那些女生,我好多了).第一次进新的课室的时候,真的是吓了一跳,因为没想到既然会那么多人,第一堂课的那班里,应该有四十个人吧.然后自己随便找个位置就坐了下来.结果没想到的是,我选择的那个位置,旁边坐着的女生(第一眼看起来是个很骄傲又很自以为是的女生,也是个看来酷酷的女生)既然是个高手(因为她一直以来都考到好成绩),真是有眼不识泰山啊.

后来,主动跟一个男生讲话(因为还记得自己是跟他一起orientation的）之后，我们两个从此以后就便变成朋友了，每次上课都一起坐。过了一段时间，才发现到那个人。

第一眼看到的时候，才知道这个班里，at least 还有一个可以看的，感觉还不错的人。一直以来，我都希望去到新的地方时，可以认识到新的朋友，而不只是朋友的那种，而是帅哥的那种。哈哈。。。终于，小小愿望实现了。可是他身边的那位苍蝇真的看起来让人很不爽，虽然自己后来知道了她并不是他的。。。那个啦；可是就是很讨厌他们每次都是一起出现，而他老是会载她。所以有时就是因为讨厌，所以连他都不想多看一眼了。因为只要往他的方向看去，就连同那只苍蝇也一起被看到。而且不是女朋友，干吗那么暧昧老是要跟他撒娇啊。真是阿。。。

第一眼看到的时候，就知道他年龄也不小了，至少没有这班小鬼们小；也能知道他一定已经是个上班族了，就像自己一样，半工半读这样的。偶尔会看几下没错，尤其是课题很无聊的时候。因为他除了是很好看，给我的感觉也很像某个人。然后是，他笑起来真的很可爱。

偶尔的对上眼时，也是开心的无比，因为觉得自己终于被他发现到了（虽然后来也没发生什么事，就是不小心在我看路的时候，而你也在看路的时候，我们看到彼此罢了）。Well, at least, our eyes contact is like "hey, I wish I could talk to you"...but I can't because I don't know where to start and is kind of like, maybe in future we will talk to each other...

后来，我们知道彼此是同班的，也知道彼此的名字（当然不是彼此自我介绍的，而是听到各自的朋友那样称呼自己的那一刻偷听来的）。后来，我的朋友跟你的朋友聊起来了，甚至他们也跟你聊起来，有玩笑我们都一起笑了。就可惜，我们就是一直都没有跟彼此讲话，还是找不到机会跟彼此聊起来。

然后的后来，有一天，你既然在面子书里把我加入你的朋友名单里。很是意外也很惊喜，虽然到了现在，你没post过什么给我，而我也只能进去看一看，然后进一步认识你的。

结果，我还是猜错了一点。你虽然看起来很成熟，很稳重的，可是你既然是，1989年出生的。

喂，你也太小了吧。红色的Power Ranger.

August...Oh NO!!!

I know is August. And I know that you're birthday is on August too.

But what I totally forgot is, which date it is your birthday. And honestly, I was completely forgot that your birthday is this month too, because I can't remember that, August is something or someone's birthday to remember.

How terribleeeeeeeeeeeeeee.................!!

I'm so sorry...this month is like....busy and crazy.

I'm so sorry for being so much late.

Happy Belated Birthday, My DEAR Lao Da.

I Love You like This; And I love Myself like THat

I saw this in Facebook today.

【总有那么几天。。。。】
处女——谁也不想理
天秤——不想起床

Now I understand why sometimes you just don't want to talk to me. Or don't seems to care. But I get used to it, because I get used to almost all your weirdo habit.

And now I finally understood it too.

That, why am I so lazy to leave my bed..... hahaha....

Ｇｉｖｅ Ｍｅ Ａ Ｒｅａｓｏｎ

知道我现在在做什麽吗？

刚才，我在小小的难过一下。后来的一秒，我在夜读，我自己写过的点点滴滴。

我从来都不知道，自己会写出那样的文章来。说是个人生活？日记吗？还是我在说故事？你说呢，随你开心吧。我一直以来都觉得，别人的开心来得重要多了，即使自己多少要受点委屈。

很久没有跟老大聊天了。不是我太忙，也其实不是他太忙，更不是我们两个吵架了。我们怎么可能会吵架呢？没见过面的人怎么会吵架呢？不问，我都可以知道，老大现在不只是过得很忙，还过得很幸福。不是因为他结婚了，而是他的乖宝宝真的很讨人欢喜啊。是我都觉得很幸福啦。没骗你的哦，看到那小可爱，我都觉得很幸福呢。不是因为我们终于见面了，然后他让我看他的乖宝宝，而是他终于把他乖宝宝的照片记给我了，在面子书里。

没有回应他有一些原因的。一是，可能我吃醋了，因为我们最后一次的聊天是谈到他那个暧昧的女朋友，虽然我知道我跟他从来都不会有什麽可能或结果，可是吃醋就是吃醋了，　因为总觉得老大真的是让我跌破眼镜啊，喜欢的对象怎么会是那种女人（并不是因为她是个有坏习惯的女人，而是她也长的太。。。。哎呀，不要逼我讲难听的话啊）。我比较喜欢老大跟Ａｔｈｅｎａ在一起，真的觉得只有她才最适合做老大的天使，可是老大既然只跟她当永远的好朋友，真是非常莫名的莫名其妙啊。

二是，我们之间的话题，有点滑落了（就是有点无趣的意思啦）。终于我玩腻了吗，这个游戏？不再觉得特别了吗，这个缘分？可能吧。我没有适合的词语可以形容。我只知道，我们虽然还是会不停的聊天没错，可是会聊到哪里呢？总觉得一直在那里打转，而我也转得有点累了。你难道不会吗？可能并不会吧，因为我对你来说并不是什麽特别的大人物。所以就算有一天我不再找你了，我想你也无所谓吧，尤其是你这种男人，自尊很强的男人。为什麽会说你自尊很强你，跟你聊天这段时间就能知道啦，你样样事都把自己抬得高高在上（除了长相以外，可能你觉的自己不够帅吧，你觉得可以更帅吧，不过这样已经很帅了，所以不要贪心哦），所以你给人的感觉就是很很很强悍的，这种人，通常都自尊心很强的，不是吗？

我写部落格不是因为想写日记，日记是不给别人看的不是吗？

但说实在的，我也不懂为何一直在写，也没想过在地球的另一半，可能有人一直在专心的读着。我想我只所以会一直写，是因为停不下来吧。还是因为习惯的关系？还是因为自己那莫名的责任感？因为觉得再不写，部落格会变得很可怜？因为要是从此停笔了，就不会知道原来自己很喜欢文字？各种的原因都有的，说来说去都觉得不管说哪一个都没有错。哦，还有一个，因为在未来的偶然回来看，会很怀念以前的自己是怎么过日子的？

最后，我想告诉你，我重新回去读书的决定，不是错的哦。因为？这也是有很多很多的原因啦。哈哈哈。。。。下次再告诉你，很迟了。我还有书要，夜读哦。

晚安。哦，是早安。

Someone else

Why do I feel that, you're actually, don't want to talk to me anymore?

Maybe is not my feeling. Maybe is true that you don't care anymore. But well, think back again, you never seems to care.

Maybe is my false, because I never call you or text you either. Yeah, maybe is my false.

But don't you suppose to reply when I post something on your wall? Or post some comment on your status?

Maybe you're busy, I guess. But, hey, come back and check on it again. Is not that you're busy anyway, you were posting other thing as well as feedback or comment when somebody else is posting on your wall. Somebody else but me.

Maybe I'm not that important anymore. I do understand that, sometimes. Yes, just sometimes. Not every time. I'm not that clever, you know. So I don't understand thing all the times. Or let's just say I don't want to understand it anymore. Because it hurts me, and you never know. Of course you won't know, because I never tell....and you never will ask?

I do understand that. That time had past, so fast. And I was not there when you need me. There was someone else. Someone else but me. Someone else had replaced the place I used to be, in your heart. When you're down, when you need someone to talk to. When I was there. Time make it fade. It fade away so slowly, I barely noticed. And when I do, I feel hurt, because it won't the same anymore even though I've try to save it. It won't be the way it use to be anymore.

I can't even read your blog right now. And I seriously think, maybe I should block you from reading my blog too. Because, we don't share our story anymore, right? Like we use to.

Is my false anyway, for putting so much hope on you, for trusting you will maintain our friendship no matter how and what, for expecting you would appreciate me like I do for you, for remembering that we are still the best of friend no matter how and when.

Is my false anyway, for not knowing that someone else might replace my place, and I could be faded away silently without you even noticed it like I don't too.

And sure there is someone else who could replace me. I should happy for you, but I'm sorry to say I'm not. Especially when you are replying someone else and totally ignore mine....Maybe I was jealous, maybe...But what am I supposed to do anyway, because I used to love you that much. And now is like...whatever.

There always is someone else, someone else but me. But you will never know, no matter how many someone else is going to be there for you, I could only waiting for you but not someone else when I needed someone to be here for me the most, because there isn't any someone else who could totally replace you in my heart. And I guess that is why I hurt the most. Because I was alone and you never know it.

How bad it is?

Very bad.