Thank you

I read a book the day before. It said that we have to do something, even though it is only a small thing, to show our greatest gratitude, towards other. I found it very commanding.

I did it. And I felt something I never have before.

I bought cards and chocolates.  Write some notes, notes of appreciations, which is countless, and I thank everyone, with full of sincerity, from deep inside my heart.

Everyone was surprised.  Some of them merely thanked me back for the chocolates; some of them thought am I resigning; some of them said they were worried.  That I might leave.

I didn't of course, to have to leave. But I promise and had decided that I will, once I get the opportunity.

And a supervisor of mine approached and asked, "do you really want to become a government servant?".

He even said that he believed that I have big potential and opportunities in this outlet.  He said that no one can handle it but me. Yes, he trusted me. And I'm so touched.  I always thought I'm a lousy leader, a freaky manager or whatever bad words you can come with...but he puts his confidence in me and accept and support me as his leader (sob sob touching :'(). And he even begged me not to leave. He said this outlet need me.

Well, that's the best thing ever happened to me since I'm taking over this outlet. At least in the end, there is still a big supporter of mine still want to team up with me. I always admire Ellis and wanted to be like her. But I know I will never be as I have this bad temper of mine(which I manage to control now, and still lacks of passionate communication skills and leadership skills. ...I'm that sort of tough and fierce on the outside but soft - hearted on the inside types of person - which caused myself quite some dilemma...and I still haven't get the answer how can Ellis cope with that.

I will, one day. To become a great leader and have a great team following and admiring me just like I do to Ellis.

And really, thank you very much for believing in me.Thank you West, for don't want me to leave. Thank you Abg Salihin for be there and confessed your big support for me. Thank you Puspa for not wanting me go. Thank you Sylvia for appreciated what I choose for you. And thank you Precisla for scared that I might leave. It all make me wanna stay back.

Thank you for be there for me just like a family.

三姐

我是小妹。

家里最小的女儿。也是家里最小的,妈妈的孩子。

家里有四个女儿。

看到那些好吃却昂贵的蛋糕。看了会流口水却决对不会去买的蛋糕。因为知道那种蛋糕一定会让自己增肥的蛋糕。想起了三姐。

看到太阳就要下山了的那橙色的傍晚。那多么诱人的景色。那温暖的太阳。那被照着却渐渐变暗的晚霞。那白云再也不白了的晚霞。想起了三姐。

看着自己的书面。看着自己的自拍。想起了三姐。我们在一起胡闹自拍的时候多么疯狂。又,想起了三姐。

三姐总是一个人。

一个人笑。一个人哭。一个人看连续剧。一个吃晚餐。一个拍那寂寞的夕阳还有天空。一个人去瑜伽。一个人搭飞机。一个人承担, 那件事。

一个人。我又想起了三姐。

她跟我说她一个人。她不再把相片 po出来。加载了也没有人看。我在看。

她跟我说她一个人。她不再期待谈什么轰轰烈烈的爱。不想再等那个对的人。我说,一定会出现的,那个对的人。

她跟我说她一个人。她开始看那些风水师所写的命运。她传了传类似的信息给身边的重要人士。我说,相信好事,好事一定会来拜访。

我什么都给不了。我给关心。加油。耳朵。还有,爱心和支持。

我要,三姐接下来,可以无比的幸福和,快乐。

不是没有人在看。我在看哦。

小小

今天。莫名的。看到你的那一个"赞"。而感到无比的开心。

也因为这样,跟别人提起了, 那个曾经是我暗恋的对像, 那个我第一个暗恋, 第一次暗恋那么久的那个你。

始终没有在一起过。他说,是因为你没告白过吧?

仔细想想,我好像真的是没告白过。对你。

好像有传字条吧。虽然不记得内容是什么了。而且好像,你连理都不理。所以,从此就不再告白了。没有当面告白。

不敢。没勇气。怕。怕受伤。怕被拒绝。

后来。我们没再同班。而我也遇上了别人。然后也听到了你和某某人交往的事情。

听到了。也吃醋了。

现在想想。还是记得啊。还是能想念啊。只能想念啦。

现在的那个"赞"。又是什么意思呢?

可以让我小小的开心的。感动的。骄傲的。

可以让我把它想成是, 你终于注意到我了吗?

小小的开心哦。知道你在看。知道你看到。知道你看着。

有哦。小小的满足
小小的幸福。小小的。。。

谢谢你

终于看过来了。