Thank you

I read a book the day before. It said that we have to do something, even though it is only a small thing, to show our greatest gratitude, towards other. I found it very commanding.

I did it. And I felt something I never have before.

I bought cards and chocolates.  Write some notes, notes of appreciations, which is countless, and I thank everyone, with full of sincerity, from deep inside my heart.

Everyone was surprised.  Some of them merely thanked me back for the chocolates; some of them thought am I resigning; some of them said they were worried.  That I might leave.

I didn't of course, to have to leave. But I promise and had decided that I will, once I get the opportunity.

And a supervisor of mine approached and asked, "do you really want to become a government servant?".

He even said that he believed that I have big potential and opportunities in this outlet.  He said that no one can handle it but me. Yes, he trusted me. And I'm so touched.  I always thought I'm a lousy leader, a freaky manager or whatever bad words you can come with...but he puts his confidence in me and accept and support me as his leader (sob sob touching :'(). And he even begged me not to leave. He said this outlet need me.

Well, that's the best thing ever happened to me since I'm taking over this outlet. At least in the end, there is still a big supporter of mine still want to team up with me. I always admire Ellis and wanted to be like her. But I know I will never be as I have this bad temper of mine(which I manage to control now, and still lacks of passionate communication skills and leadership skills. ...I'm that sort of tough and fierce on the outside but soft - hearted on the inside types of person - which caused myself quite some dilemma...and I still haven't get the answer how can Ellis cope with that.

I will, one day. To become a great leader and have a great team following and admiring me just like I do to Ellis.

And really, thank you very much for believing in me.Thank you West, for don't want me to leave. Thank you Abg Salihin for be there and confessed your big support for me. Thank you Puspa for not wanting me go. Thank you Sylvia for appreciated what I choose for you. And thank you Precisla for scared that I might leave. It all make me wanna stay back.

Thank you for be there for me just like a family.