Are you a Coffee Lover

I don't understand how's the feelings becoming a store owner.

If I had a chance to have a business. Own myself a store. I believed I would like to have a cafe as well. A place which is cozy and comfortable enough for people to have a rest. To be relaxing. To able to feel at ease while at the same time to spend some times with friends or families.

And seriously, I would love to serve my cakes for them.

Even though I'm not a coffee lover. I drink coffee, I did. But not a coffee lover. I love healthy drink. I tend to love coffee more when a little bit of choc is mixed in it.

I'm not a coffee lover. But I love your store.

Because I would love to see you. Everyday.

I would always love to meet you.

Again.

Again.

And again.

Well yes. I did commented about your store. Too dark.

You may want it to looked cozy. I know that. Just like what they always designed for a cafe. But it's still too dark. Dim I should say. But no. It's too dark.

You said you want to make people sleepy.

You said that's why you painted it black.

Still. Is not my fav. I won't go there if it's not because of you.

I'm not a coffee lover anyway.

But I love to pass by. I love to walk in.

I love to have the nervousness just to think that you might be there. Smiling at me when I walks in.

Just like the other night. When our city in whole black. Blackout.

I didn't go there purposely. I was there so I could asking for help. But the you walked out. I have no choice but to smile and said hi.

You smiled back. I always remember that.

I waved at you and smiled. Then you smiled back as well. The day when I sat in your store with my ex-boss.

I would love to have a cafe too. I will deco it with emotionally triggered type of color.

Even though I'm not a Coffee Lover.

I want to ask you. Perhaps one day in future. Why did you choose to open a cafe instead. You said you're the owner. But this cafe exist in Peninsular already. Just like MPH.

So is that means you bought the franchise license?

You are rich. OMG.

Another criteria of yours to show how different we are.

So. Are you a Coffee Lover?

The Transporter

I always believed I will have a chance to see you today. I even believed that I could meet you and talk to you today.

When the chances came, I felt like a stalker though.

You were there. I think you're leaving. And as usual. You're busy all the time. You never stop checking your phone. Calling. Texting. Named it. Whatever it is. I saw you quite few times, that your hands never leave your phone alone.

I can understand that. You're a businessman. That's why.

I just left the washroom. That's when I saw you. You're pacing around before you exit and entered again, and headed towards the staircase to level one.

I was just a few steps behind you.

Wanted to call you but Stop.

I have nothing to say.

And you maybe real busy.

I don't want to disturb.

As I'm not supposed to.

Then I watched you left.

Today was the first time ever I WhatsApp you.

Thanks to the transporter though. As he wrongly delivered your stock to MPH.

It was my first time. Calling out your name.

Most of the time I just said "hi".

One word. As simple as that.

Yet on your textes,for me it's kinda weird when you direct to the point of your message.

" Hi Timothy, Rose here from MPH". I said.

Never expected you to reply on the spot as well.

You even post about your in-store promotion. To handle tomorrow's blackout situation.

Our conversation is business type of bore. Formal hi and thanks. The end.

I wanted to say more. But I don't want to sounds too desperate at the same time.

I don't know how you feel. I believed you'll be super surprised. To received texting from me. I was surprised you replied on time as well.

I wondered what you had in mind.

I wondered how you're actually feel about this conversation. About my sudden text.

Thanks To the transporter though. For making a mistake.

I miss you. Again. Won't meet you until Monday is here.

I can see that you're smiling when you're checking on my WhatsApp profile picture. I know you will view it. And you will smile.

You will like it. You will like me. Just like I like you.

Secret Love Song - Little Mix

Everyone has that one song that could make you repeat and repeat until it stamp in your mind.

I have a new one. Lately.

I downloaded it last night.

Started to listen to it this morning.

And I cried. When I watched them sing it on Youtube. It touched my emotion so bad and make me think of him more.

I saw him this afternoon.

I said hi.

He looked surprised.

He said hi too.

But I was with someone else. My ex boss.

I was there having hot cappuccino in your cafe.

I was there in the morning. Bought coffee for my staff who's gonna resign soon. You were not there.

I received a card. From your staff. And then I was there. Thanks to You. I enjoyed some discount off.

You visited your cafe just to check on the situation I guess. You were not stay long. You left after a while. I didn't managed to talked to You.

And now that I heard this song. It makes me crumbled. If it happens to us. This song is just nice for us.

There it is.

Your signature - Tim.

At the back of the card. My VIP card was authorized by you.

You're the owner.

I'm from next door. But I'm not the owner.

We are so different. Different backgrounds. Different lifestyle.

But we met here. In Vivacity.

I wondered why God let us meet each other.

And I am. So sad now.

Everything Happens for a Reason.

I guess that is why you did that. To make me realize that how important you are to me.

To make yourself realized that you needed me just like I need you.

Now that something change.

I guess the main reason God plays this game with both of us is,

To remind us that we're meant for each other, so don't ever do silly thing to tear each other apart.

Please mark your words, darling.

I Miss You

嗨。
你好。
You're there.
You walked into my store.
I was in the counter.
And you walked straight towards the counter. Smiling. Awkwardly.

I don't know why but you gave me that feelings. You did smiled awkwardly.

At the same time. You smiled happily too. You gave me a feeling like you'd get caught on something. Like you're not supposed to let me know you're coming. But then you did, and I saw you coming.

That's why I said awkwardly.

I smiled. Of course. Because I was thrilled. By just looking at you. Especially now that you're smiling.

Hi. I said.

Hey. You said back.I gave my sincere compliments. Said congrats to your opening new store.

We shaked hand. I touched you. I mean yes, we shakes hands, so we're touching each other's hands.

You said your cafe were quite. Not much crowd. I said now you finally understand how I felt. You said your staff gone out to spread the intro leaflets. You said we can't do much if the mall isn't doing anything. Which was true. And I think that's all you said. Then you smiled and left.

Ok. What do you mean.

When you came all the way here.
And smiled at me like that.
Just to informed me about this?

I told you I was sorry.

For not able to make it on Sunday. 24th Jan.
You said it's ok.

But then you're here. It's like you missed me. You miss me. You want to see me again. Just like I want to see you again.

And we did.

I'm fine just to looking at you from the far side.

I'm fine even though you may not noticed I was there, looking at you. Looking at your back. Looking at you from the side.

I'm fine.

But I never know you will come today. This is so not in my list of expectations.

Yet I was so glad and happy. I can't stand to shut off my smile the whole day. Even when I almost slipped and broke my knee. Ouch.

Because you were here. Even for a while. Less than 5 minutes. And you were smiling at me. And we're shaking hands.

Maybe we can be more than this. You know. The awkward kind of next door neighbor. That only says hi to each other because something is happening.

Because I was there. You know. Yesterday. And I saw you sitting on the entrance. You were kind of busy.

I saw you twice. Yesterday. And it's never enough. I always wish to see you more. More than that. I wish to be your closer friend. The one who can talk jumpsuit and laugh like hell kind of friend. A scandalous friend.

Then you were there again in the evening. After I came back from my dinner.  I saw you coming. Then you moved to the side. It was like you saw me but then you tried to hide away. Haha...how cute.

Then you were following me at my back. You didn't called me out. I guess you're following me and observing me. You may feel weird but just staring from my back. Since I was walking super slow after I twisted my right knee a little. Is kinda pain actually. That's why I walked slow. I didn't known you were there. I only know when I get the tissues paper and slightly turn back. You're heading to the man's room. While I went to the ladies.

We came out almost the same minutes. This time you're in the front. While I walked same slow an your back. I was staring at your back. I didn't called. Just like you didn't. But that was enough for me. Because I know you know I was following you from the back. I know you saw me when you came out from the man's. Because I was walking pretty slow and kept my head down all the time.

Why does your name have to starts to "T".

I guess my fate with a man must always comes with a "T" huh?

I never called your name so far.

So how should I call you?

 Tim?

 Timothy?

 Hi. There.

That's how I always called you.

And hi. I miss you. Again.

Tell me you feels the same.

Hope to see you again.

Tomorrow.

今天是，一月二十六，2016。

心情好。

Always remember the feelings of falling in LOVE.

有人告诉过你吗？

爱情可以只来 一次。 也可以来过超过一次。

有人告诉过你吗？

你可以爱一个人很久很久。你也可以喜欢一个又一个的人。

说穿了。

你可以喜欢一个人。 可喜欢那一个人，不代表你就应该跟他在一起。还长长久久地在一起。

喜欢归喜欢。

喜欢。 不一定。就要在一起。

喜欢。 也可以只是单纯地崇拜。单纯地欣赏。甚至是，单纯地暗恋。

喜欢。说穿了。是自己开心, 心满意足的那种感觉。不一定要让你知道。不一定要让你也喜欢我。不一定要有人受伤害。不一定要扮坏人。更不一定，要在一起。

昨晚停电了。

听说又是整个砂劳越停电的那种情况。

因为担心没梯子，所以想说去隔壁借一借。因为我们就是需要梯子，才可以关电的。因为前几个钟头，看到你的工人用着梯子呢。想说他们一定肯帮帮忙。

想着想着，自己就主动走过去了。

一到你店门口，就看着你从里面走了出来。
要逃也逃不掉了。

只好，停下来打招呼了。

反正就是停电嘛。反正我们都不能做什么。反正我们也认识了。反正你也邀请我了。反正，难得有机会。

于是，我们就这样，在黑暗里聊天了。

说着说着，你看起来并不老。应该才大我一两岁吧。

说着说着，你看起来有点小孩子气的可爱呢。

说着说着，你笑起来时还真迷人，可爱到。。。

说着说着，你这种高度的男人，才是搭配我的理想型呢。

说着说着，今天可是第一次看你没穿衬衫。是简单随合的搭配呢。

说着说着，我发现我们可以做好朋友。

说着说着，那恋爱的感觉默默地来了，难以抗拒。

说着说着，I feel like a stalker now.

后来有点了，我匆匆地告别离开了。 你却进来买东西。我发现，怎样都好，我认得你的背影。

电脑系统因为停电而出了问题，我问你要收据吗? 你在你员工回答要的同时跟我说不用。我说待会再拿给你，你笑着说没关系。

是的，你笑了。

Super charming.

说穿了，你长的很普通。 并不是什么大帅哥。
可是就是很迷人。

对。你看起来就是一个好男人。

就是一个好男人。

你的孩子和妻子，很幸福有你。

很高兴认识你。

我不是来捣乱的。

我只会捣乱自己的心情而已。绝对不会打扰你的。

T.N.

今天是一月二十三号。二零一六年。

我把你的笑脸，带进梦里。