The Apartment

I never thought I would have a chance to enter that apartment.

Yet thanks to you. I'd been there yesterday.

I didn't managed to get the accurate answer from you. You never tell me whether the apartment belong to you or you just rents it for working purpose.

Yet you brought me there.

Yes, we have a date again. Yesterday. After I came back from Samarindah. I'm not supposed to meet you. But I wanted to. I miss you so bad and I missed your touch and kisses.

So I parked my car in Vivacity Megamall. And you brought me there in your car.

Once enter the apartment, you open up the glass door towards the balcony. I standed there. You approached from behind. Hugged me from behind. And kissed me as well.

I love the feeling when you do so. You kissed me. So passionately. Like we're some sort of true love. Like... we won't be able to be torn apart since then. 

You're pointing to far away mountains. Then you showed me which one is Mount Santubong, which one is Mount Kiding, as well as some named Penrissen but I could not recalled it back right, now. 

We moved into the living room afterwards. We talked for hours. You're kissing me once in a while. Teasing me. We had some hugging and your touch is hard to resist. But I still manage to push you away. I don't want to involve so much. Because it will only make me hurt more.

But honestly I love everything you did.

I love your smile. I love it when you smile at me.

I love it when you stares and smile.

I love it when you stare at me so passionately I would have thought I get it wrong. But it was not wrong. Wrong feels so right, you get it?

We didn't hold hands when we left.

While waiting for the lift, you hold me suddenly and kissed my head. Forehead. And hold me close. I can see our reflection on the glass. I looked at us. You're so tall and I was short, yet just perfectly fit into each other cuddle. I love you but I can't admit it.

I admitted I miss you though.

We holds hand in the car. Never wanting to let go. Your hands sweat easily. You sent me back to the mall. 

You parked you car opposite mine. Then you started to look around, looking for CCTV and whoever pass by. When you're sure there is No one. Your kissing start again.

We were kissing in the public again. In the parking lot. I can't believed it. I just let it happens.

I told you about my employer. Then I cried. You were listening and staring at me sadly. You understand how I feel. 

Then I confessed how I felt about you. Why I decided to join you. I told you I will never regret doing what we're doing now. 

Then we're staring at each other. Until I can't hold it anymore. I kissed you. For the first time. 

I should have say. But it's no use at all bow. Now that you belongs to her. You attached to her. 

How I wish.

Today was 18th Feb 2016.