Someone stop The Rain... Please...

It's raining outside. Damn! Is quite cold inside. Plus someone is not at home, it make me feel terribly lonely. Well, this "someone" gone out for some conference in KL(a place where he will stay for only a week), While there's another "someone" who gone back to KL(a place where he comes from).

When it is quiet...and there's nothing I really wanted to do, here I go again - ONLINE ~ It's really bored, but there's nothing else I could do. I couldn't ring this"someone"...as I don't dare. What should I say? Hi, how are you?....and ??? Oh, just want to ask about the chinese book department report...(AGAIN???)....See? I don't know, really don't know what to say. How pity.

I'm nut.Perhaps.Ask me why.Why? Oh, it's quite embarassing. As lately, after this "someone" gone back, I always loggin in facebook, then go through one of my friend's profile, and search for this"someone" 's name, and see his photos (almost everyday)...while in fact, I could just add him as friend and then we could chat with each other or at least get to know what's going on with him lately...after we've been apart. But I didn't. How stupid.'Coz I'm scared. About what? Lots. About his situation, maybe he has a new girlfriend, maybe I will see someone else post up a sweet but disgusting message on his wall, maybe I will see that he uploads his pics with some other woman, maybe he will knows I actually have boyfriend, maybe the pics that I uploads is ugly and he saw it(Ouch! How embarass!) Now. Got it?? There's so much that I'm afraid of. Well honestly, the main reason I don't dare to add him as Friend is because I don't want him to know about my BOYFRIEND!! Oh shit! How I wish I was single!!!!

So here I am, act like a maniac, see his pics everyday(via other's profile) but couldn't tell him. I should add him, shouldn't I? So I could ask him when will he comes to Kch again? Or maybe I could ask him out for a date(when Feb is here,and he's here for stock count in MPH)?? HaiZ.......

I think I will start it again, my bad habits! Waiting for someone who I shouldn't have. Or should I say, waiting for someone who doesn't know that I was waiting for him at all....???

Am I stupid? I think so. But I'm a normal gal, that's why I'm stupid.