Morning, Noon & Night

I was reading a book written by a dead fellow who used to be very famous. He was dead in 2007. At first, I thought "he" was a woman as "he" has a female-type name, Sidney Sheldon. But I was wrong.

I was weeping like hell yesterday. And before I fell in sleep, my eyes had looked like a goldfish. And that did not disappeared even after I awoke this morning, I still looked a like terrible goldfish.Something bad is happening. It was happening.

I decided to read at least two books in a month(as I always don't have time to touch any book for the last few months - work make me exhausted and have only a few minutes left to online before I crawl into my bed), and I did, successfully. I read more than two copies of books this month(exclude the comic and magazine, if you wanna know).

Life had been the same. But something happened last night which, almost, broke me into half. And the next morning, I would loss one of my wings.

....*speechless* I don't feel want to recall it back.

I always wish for a better tomorrow.

And I finally understand, why the rain is here this couples of days. It was here because of me. And when everything is fine back, the sun appear. How strange, isn't it?

I was excited. Very excited a few days ago. As me & mum had finalize, when to get the money and buy the car. My car. My new car. Brother said and insisted I should go for a second hand car instead of shop for a brand new one. But, hey, what the hell. The price is almost the same and I'm the one that do all the paying. So why should you care so much that in the end the car might probably back to shop as I cant afford to pay it?

Another thing I was really excited about is, Cindy. Thinking back all those days when she's back, and we'd planned to go somewhere but then is all because of the transport, we end up, missed the change to go shopping together, meet and have drinks together.....all these will soon gone once I have my car. I could drive her to where ever we want to.Thrill !!!!! Isn't it? So I will have to practice more(as it had been a while I didn't grab the starring and drive, it makes me nervous a bit) since then and make sure I really could drive her here and there when she's home, to Kuching =)

Aunt Euralia had back to the nun's house. I should have visit her today. But then, the accident, caused to I did not. I felt guilty & sorry for her as I'd promised her I will visit her again whenever am free. And now that am free, but I sit at home and reading.

Mum's worried about me. About the car. About the traffic. She said be careful, drive slow and, DON'T drive when it is a raining day.I know I have to be careful. It had been....hmm...one year, I don't drive. Daddy's worried about me too.

But, it's okay. Everything will be fine. It will, be fine.