I'm Losing You

It's so obvious, that you're feeling annoying with me. You won't apologize anymore. You took no effort in comforting me anymore. I was so upset, so disappointed. All you could do is yell at me back, then silence through out the whole night. I don't know you anymore. We had been fighting and facing with this silence war since last week. It happen one day to another. I guess you're tired with me. You don't care anymore. I pulled out the ring and giving back to you, told you that if you really sure the ring should be given to me, and it is really right for me, I am the one that should be wearing it, then give it to me for the second time. I thought you could give it back to me directly, told me instantly that it really is belongs to me. I thought you would. But you didn't. I was surprise. But who am I to feel surprise. I guess I really don't deserve that ring, am I? I guess you really are confuse that probably you should not give the ring for me at the first place. Like I'm the wrong girl you choose. Like my finger could poison the ring. Like I will never deserve it. Like I will never gonna deserve it. Heart broken. I don't wanna lose you. But you told me I don't deserve it. Not that you said so, you really said so. You never say, but I feel it. I'm losing you and you don't love me anymore. You, just don't care anymore. I told you, if you want to leave, you could just leave a note on the table and pack your things then leave. I will not stop you. I told you so. Will you really do that? To me?

I don't know. I told you I will be fine no matter how hard I will cry later on. But that is non of your business anymore, isn't it? Because you're gone. Once you're gone, you don't have to worry about me. I guess you really would no longer worry about once you choose to leave. Like you did before, like you told me before, you will not miss me if we really do breaking up. I was so upset. I was scared. I was crying, inside, even though I had wiped away my tears and it had dried up.

This time, you did not say that you still want me anymore. You did not mentioned that you still love me anymore. This time, I guess you had faded up. This time, I'm losing you. My God. Am hurting inside. Please run away fast, if you really want to leave. Please run, instead of walking out my door.