I Miss You

嗨。
你好。
You're there.
You walked into my store.
I was in the counter.
And you walked straight towards the counter. Smiling. Awkwardly.

I don't know why but you gave me that feelings. You did smiled awkwardly.

At the same time. You smiled happily too. You gave me a feeling like you'd get caught on something. Like you're not supposed to let me know you're coming. But then you did, and I saw you coming.

That's why I said awkwardly.

I smiled. Of course. Because I was thrilled. By just looking at you. Especially now that you're smiling.

Hi. I said.

Hey. You said back.I gave my sincere compliments. Said congrats to your opening new store.

We shaked hand. I touched you. I mean yes, we shakes hands, so we're touching each other's hands.

You said your cafe were quite. Not much crowd. I said now you finally understand how I felt. You said your staff gone out to spread the intro leaflets. You said we can't do much if the mall isn't doing anything. Which was true. And I think that's all you said. Then you smiled and left.

Ok. What do you mean.

When you came all the way here.
And smiled at me like that.
Just to informed me about this?

I told you I was sorry.

For not able to make it on Sunday. 24th Jan.
You said it's ok.

But then you're here. It's like you missed me. You miss me. You want to see me again. Just like I want to see you again.

And we did.

I'm fine just to looking at you from the far side.

I'm fine even though you may not noticed I was there, looking at you. Looking at your back. Looking at you from the side.

I'm fine.

But I never know you will come today. This is so not in my list of expectations.

Yet I was so glad and happy. I can't stand to shut off my smile the whole day. Even when I almost slipped and broke my knee. Ouch.

Because you were here. Even for a while. Less than 5 minutes. And you were smiling at me. And we're shaking hands.

Maybe we can be more than this. You know. The awkward kind of next door neighbor. That only says hi to each other because something is happening.

Because I was there. You know. Yesterday. And I saw you sitting on the entrance. You were kind of busy.

I saw you twice. Yesterday. And it's never enough. I always wish to see you more. More than that. I wish to be your closer friend. The one who can talk jumpsuit and laugh like hell kind of friend. A scandalous friend.

Then you were there again in the evening. After I came back from my dinner.  I saw you coming. Then you moved to the side. It was like you saw me but then you tried to hide away. Haha...how cute.

Then you were following me at my back. You didn't called me out. I guess you're following me and observing me. You may feel weird but just staring from my back. Since I was walking super slow after I twisted my right knee a little. Is kinda pain actually. That's why I walked slow. I didn't known you were there. I only know when I get the tissues paper and slightly turn back. You're heading to the man's room. While I went to the ladies.

We came out almost the same minutes. This time you're in the front. While I walked same slow an your back. I was staring at your back. I didn't called. Just like you didn't. But that was enough for me. Because I know you know I was following you from the back. I know you saw me when you came out from the man's. Because I was walking pretty slow and kept my head down all the time.

Why does your name have to starts to "T".

I guess my fate with a man must always comes with a "T" huh?

I never called your name so far.

So how should I call you?

 Tim?

 Timothy?

 Hi. There.

That's how I always called you.

And hi. I miss you. Again.

Tell me you feels the same.

Hope to see you again.

Tomorrow.

今天是，一月二十六，2016。

心情好。